A Hip Downtown Eatery + {Hip Fat}

I was having a bit of a "down day" over the weekend.  A little bit of the same sentiments going through my head as that brutally honest Monday, but also some new thoughts, some new discouragements.  Yes, I have soooooooo much to be thankful for!  Yes, I've come a loooooong way.  Yes, I've lost 47 pounds.  But... BUT...I still have a long way to go.  And this weekend I felt a bit overwhelmed by that fact.  I even felt angry that I had let myself get so out of shape, gain so much weight, and get here in the first place.  I "should" feel happy, being the lightest I've been in over 3 years, but as I looked in the mirror this weekend, all I could see was how far I still have to go.   Do you ever have days like that?  Where you only see the negative?  Photo Source

I even snapped a pic of all the fat lingering around my hips (which I'll share later in the post).  I am so tired of walking around wearing this fat suit - I wish I could literally just peel it off.  But I know it is going to take time.  I am on the right path and doing the right things:  increased veggie juices, increased fruit & veggie intake, smaller portions, and exercise.

I got out of my funk with a quiet and productive Sunday.  Babycakes and Dear Hubby went to the mountains with my inlaws, so I had a whole free day to myself.  Here's some highlights of how I spent my day:

  • I started by planting flowers in the front yard.
  • I caught up on blogging.
  • I met an old high school friend at a hip breakfast restaurant in downtown Denver, called Snooze:

  • It was sooooooooo "hip", there was a 45 minute wait! So we talked on a bench outside.  It was really fun to "catch up" and see where the last 15 years had taken us!
  • I ordered the Breakfast Tacos - and added spinach, caramelized onions, and sweet red peppers to the egg scramble inside each taco.  YUMMMM!! It was served with fresh pico de gallo.

  • We spent about 2 hours together.  It was surprisingly comfortable & fun and a great break from my normal busy schedule of work and momhood!
  • Then I stopped at Sprouts for the first leisurely grocery shopping trip I've had in 2 years.  I was indulgent, slowly moving up and down each and every aisle!  I got outta there for $103 this week (last week was $90), but I did splurge on a one time item that will last a LONG time: chia seeds!

  • Supposedly these are full of fiber, Omega3s, and protein and super versatile!

  • Then I came home and cleaned out the fridge, washed out all the leftover "leftovers", and even tidyed the pantry shelves.  (Yes, I had waaaaaay too much free time!!)
  • I put together a marinated sweet pepper salad w/jicama and corn.  (Recipe later in the week!)
  • I made the amazing Pink Kale Juice.
  • I unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher.
  • I unloaded and reloaded the washing machine.
  • And then, when my family came home, we played in the yard, enjoyed hamburgers on the grill, read lots of books, and ran around the house laughing. :)

WHEW!!  I can't believe I fit ALL of that into one little day!

Remember that "hip fat" pic I told you about?  In normal CLOTHED pictures, my hips don't demand much notice - like in this one: layered silk shirt lays gracefully over pear shaped hips.

But take those clothes off... and BEWARE... it's not pretty!!!!!!  But like I said in my "motto" of sorts, life is too short to live perpetually unhappy.  So I'm on a mission... a mission to rid myself of this excess fat... one little pound at a time!  I'm under there somewhere!

Questions:

1) What do you do when you find yourself being negative?  Can you turn it into motivation for change?   Or does it paralyze you?

2) Do you use chia seeds?  What is your favorite way to use them?

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Well...good for you and thanks for being so honest. I love when women can express themselves and show what actual women look like. I just had a baby 5 months ago, but even before my pregnancy I was 150lbs. Those who knew me saw the clothed me, but under the attire was a skinny but far from "perfect" figure. NOW..I am thinking to myself what was I so worried about, my body looks way different from my tighter prebaby body I use to be so worried about. So I need to shed about 20 lbs to be 150 again but I know it will be a different 150lbs. I am comfortable with that..its taken me some thought but I am healthy and active. As long as I can teach my son that "perfect" doesn't exist in life in any manner. I want him to SEE my actions because I'm pretty sure they speak louder than words do. We are all weak at times, but those times hopefully allow for more balance in our journey's. Finding inspiration in people or situations that we may not have been open to if it weren't for the weak moment! Lets welcome the weakness, isn't that what pain is? Weakness leaving the body, without pain of some kind we are really feeling life! Anyhow, you are doing an amazing job all around. Side note: Do share about the Chia seeds????

Thanks for the long thoughtful note! And congrats on your baby boy :) I'll keep you posted on the Chia seeds, when I finally decide to open the package, ha!

snooze is the best!

It was great to see you on Sunday! And not getting enough sleep over the weekend with Babycakes energy antics certainly doesn't help with moods and adds to feeling blah. I'm glad the rest of your day was so productive and allowed for some you time!

I'm right there with you and wanting the smaller person to come out. I personally get so frustrated with it taking sooo long. Then I have to remind myself that putting weight on wasn't an overnight process, either! Clothes are wonderful in helping disguise what we see on a regular basis and I admire your bravery! :) Keep it up. Oh, and by the way, you look great!

Thanks for the nice words and reminder that this all takes TIME. So true! And the no sleep thing didn't help my weekend mood, you're right. We're STILL dealing with the consequences of that awful drink. ACK!!!!

I haven't been to Snooze yet! I suspect I'm not hip enough to wait 45 minutes. Lol. I have terrible patience with waits at restaurants. I love your ruffly top!! You can definitely turn negative feelins into some positive motivation.. especially if you are being proactive about it. I haven't made the splurge on chia seeds, but I hear awesome things about them!

AND, hence my aversion to going downtown for eats (though you always make it look tempting!)... I love that top too. At the time, I almost bought it in 2 different colors. There was another one with corals / pinks that was really pretty. Now I regret that I didn't buy it too!!!

Hey Corrie Anne,
One "strategy" for Snooze that my husband and I learned is to go before 8:30 on either Saturday or Sunday. Yeah, a little early for a weekend, but I think the longest we waited during that time was 15 minutes. Weekdays around 8 aren't bad, either. I, too, am not much of a waiter for restaurants, but this time around the company was pretty great!

Hey Kelly! I'm so behind on my blog reading this week, and have so much to catch up on!! I've literally been running from here to there and amazed that I've actually gotten some posts up!
I love this post. I love how honest you are. And I FEEL YA. You are not alone! I feel like I have this crazy fat suit too- and am just NOT comfortable and am not "me." But I know I'll get there. And so will you. Hard work does pay off! And for the record- you look beautiful and amazing!
I have been a fan of chia for years! I use it mostly in smoothies and oatmeal. I don't know if you've seen this site before, but she has a lot of chia recipes: http://powercakes.net.

Thanks for the nice words and link to the chia recipes. I have yet to even OPEN the bag b/c I'm too scared :)

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